Archive for April, 2008

Ribena rides

April 28, 2008

Walking on wheels
Arm on a lap of courage
Lost in a universe not quite your own
The door beeps and bodies stream in
You turn, you smile
Some don’t smile back
Some move away
Awkwardness
Round and round
What do you see?
Invisible pearls rolling across the cabin floor
Her brows are knitted
Head against the pole
Forty winks catches her
Your sanctuary
A sudden jolt opens her eyes
She searches for you in a dazed moment
Drink up, hurry my good boy
Hold your bottle right
Look at your wet t-shirt
People turn
To the sound of your fingers drumming
Hand thumping
Head bobbing
What music plays in your mind?
People stare
At a teenage boy
Walking on wheels
Arm on a lap of courage
At invisible pearls on the cabin floor
Trails of a weeping heart

a goat’s smile

April 23, 2008

My scheduled trip to visit the Chans in San Diego: 10-30 July 2008.

Feist is having an outdoor concert on 22 July 2008 at Humphrey’s Concerts by the Bay (San Diego, mana lagi?) and tickets are USD45 a pop!

How utterly awesome is that?!!

Secret Heart
by Feist
Let It Die © 2004 Polydor Records Ltd
(Remake of Ron Sexsmith’s Secret Heart)

Secret heart
What are you made of
What are you so afraid of
Could it be
Three simple words
Or the fear of being overheard
What’s wrong

Let her in on your secret, heart

Secret Heart
Why so mysterious
Why so sacred
Why so serious
Maybe you’re
Just acting tough
Maybe you’re just not man enough
What’s wrong

Let her in on your secret, heart

This very secret
That you’re trying to conceal
Is the very same one
That you’re dying to reveal
Go tell her how you feel

Secret heart come out and share it
This loneliness, few can bear it
Could it have something to do with
Admitting that you just can’t go through it alone

Let her in on your secret, heart

This very secret
That you’re trying to conceal
Is the very same one
That you’re dying to reveal
Go tell her how you feel
This very secret heart
Go out and share it
This very secret heart

spring awakenings

April 8, 2008

My postcards from Seoul are on their way after all!! All thanks to the kind and talented Joon who helped to post them after they were saved from an almost accidental disposal as garbage! Kamsahamnida, Joon! See you in Seoul again, sometime!

My first quarter of the year has quite literally, flown by, with 21,058 miles clocked in the air… in a big piece of metal hurtling through the skies, paying homage to the Four Asian Tigers, as friends had amusingly pointed out! I’ve outgrown the novelty of the window seat by the wings and am now an appreciative fan of the middle aisle seat, rondelé garlic and herbs cheese spread and air stewardesses with sincere smiles and not little gloomy clouds over their heads due to tight panties beneath their batik kebayas.


Things that do not last
have indescribable beauty

After a stretch of operating on crazy schedules, ungodly hours, surreal deadlines and a luggage bag that never really got unpacked, three days of traipsing around Seoul with Huiling afforded a much needed break. Despite the temperamental weather, we had halcyon days of exploring cobblestone streets lined with weeping willows and wafting with freshly brewed coffee, stuffing oneself silly with kimchi and dolsot bibimbap, eating hot pancakes in the freezing wind, squealing a muffled arrghhhh each time we exited the underground and bidding good night to delightfully gross sea creatures…

The spring date with Seoul was a collective mesh of moments that reminded me of Anne Bogart’s advice about the magical creative place or position of not knowing what to make of something or being unsure, the power in challenging certainty with uncertainty and that annoying but most wonderful moment of thoughts falling into place just as one is almost falling asleep. I’ve found cherry blossoms, circled the trees, stood blinking in the cold rain and at long last, understood their strange zen-like appeal… they made me strangely happy.

My first weekend of the second quarter was spent eating, sleeping, watching Astro, and just lepak-ing with Supra, Atah and Mama. Before the madness picks up again in June, I’m reclaiming my lazy weekends with kindred spirits, family and dedidated days of solitude… with my feet back on familiar grounds and perhaps a pedicure or two! Aja!

i miss Atah

April 2, 2008

“Atah, everyone says I’ve lost weight. I’m still 52 kg lah. Maybe I lost fat or look real tired. Arrghh… haggard, must be…”
“Lost weight? OK no worries, come back and I’ll see if you’ve really lost weight. If needed, we’ll fatten you up.”
“Okie, that sounds good.”
“Have you eaten dinner? Or are you still at work?”
“Nope, I just got back. I’ll probably make some sandwich.”
“Sandwich? Go buy some proper food.”
“Lazy lah… I’ll eat and then sleep.”
“Lazy… Make sure you eat something ah?”
“Orh. See you this Friday, Atah!”
“Yup, see you soon.”